A major part of my journey through college is learning to trust God, mostly in financial matters. Trust is harder than it sounds. Just think about it for a second. It's easy to "trust" God when everything is going just fine, and I can see how God is providing for me. But the second that something doesn't seem to be working out, I start questioning if God really cares about me, wondering how this is going to work out. But is that trust? A real casting of my burdens on Him? I don't think so. Trust means that I need to be confident that He will provide for me in His way, in His time, even when I don't seem to understand how He's going to do it. Trust means that I need to be willing to take whatever He gives me without complaining, even if I don't like it. I need to be filled with the realization that He does what is truly best for me, even though I don't see how it can possibly be for my good. That is trust. It's not easy. I'm slowly learning, but it is slow. Sometimes I think I've learned my lesson, and that now I am trusting God, but then I start doubting and questioning all over again. I think this is going to be something I will probably be struggling with for the rest of my life. But that's okay, because God is sanctifying me through this.
Philippians 4:6: Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
Matthew 6:34: Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
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